Alone in the darkness
Alone in the darkness
A Poem by Coyote Poetry
Some people lose their way and can’t find real peace.
In the many years of knowing her. I watched her grow from a carefree young woman to a drinking and desperate
woman who confused lust with love.
Once we danced like free and content children. The world was ours to take. We were fearless and unbounded by
the the challenges of our world. Today Peggy sat with booze and small dreams. She lost her great dreams upon the confusion of wrong turns and wanting too much.
She tried to blame everyone around her. I saw in her eyes. She knew she was to blame for where she landed. Lonely and in destitute place. Alone in the dark she called my name. I went to her. I held her and told her. She would be okay. She smiled and told me. “It is okay Johnnie. I have learn to accept less. Love is for the lucky. Sometime we must accept who we are.”
I tried to revive her laughter. I told her love will come when it suppose to. Perhaps some people never had the ability to love and hold on forever. Maybe our greed was stronger than our heart. Peggy told me. “All I got is the desire between my legs. I need to be needed for a time. To feel I’m more than flesh and bones waiting to die and be forgotten.”
I held sweet Peggy. Her sad eyes asked me. Was she truly alive or was she just another woman to add to my resume. I spend one week with her and we danced, laughed and I tried to bring her back. Her last words to me were. “Thank you Johnnie, you still try to love me still. You want me to know joy and happiness. Please be my friend. I need you more than you know. You make me feel alive.”
I left her to go to California. We held to love on the thread of kind words and too much distance. I lost her between war and travel. I wonder did Peggy find her way? I did learn. Love will come. Took me 37 years to know true love.
Coyote/John Castellenas
© 2014 Coyote Poetry
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37 years is surely a long time. But to find true love, that’s priceless and timeless.
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I had a bad example. My father marry 5 times and left 11 kids raised by their mother’s. I decided better to wait till I was ready. I tell the young people. If you want more than one person. Stay single. It is a wise decision.
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Bad examples are sometimes needed to show us what we don’t want. The dating world is crazy. I wish some people would choose to stay single instead of playing games. Wish that wisdom was widespread – would save a lot of heartache.
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I agree.
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bittersweet. nice words, john.
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Thank you. Just digging out old poetry. I wish we had the internet when I was young. Would of been easier to stay in contact.
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