A Poem by Coyote Poetry
We must forgive ourselves before seeking forgiveness from God.
Forgive, and ye shall be forgiven, as in the reconciliation of Jacob and Esau in Genesis 33, after Julius Schnorr von Carolsfeld, illustration from a Bible card published by the Providence Lithograph Company (Photo credit: Wikipedia)
The man at the booth with the bible. Asked me do I need
help? His eyes penetrated me like he could see me drowning in sin.
I told him my father drank everyday of his life. He
abused woman and left children without food. He believed by going to church on New Years eve and prayed to be forgiven. He would be forgiven?
The man with the bible put the book down. Told me. “I
don’t know if there is a free pass for all sins, son. I don’t know. You are
young. What could you have done so bad?”
I smiled and told him. I broken most of the 7 deadly sin,
sir. I drank too much. Didn’t lie too much. Fought wars and killed, laid with woman with wedding band. Did deeds I’m trying to repair?
The man did a silent prayer and told me. “Son, we all fall down and
must get up. This world is full of sin. Sad part is it seem all the bad thing
seem more exciting and better. You need to learn from your mistakes and become better. Pray for forgiveness.”
I shook the man hand and thanked him. I told him. “The Lord
won’t forgive you if you stay on the same road. I do pray for my father. Sinner and lovers of the road who twist the truth. We won’t get near heaven. No free passes.”
I don’t know how I fell so deep on the road to purgatory. Sad part
I didn’t learn. Roamed the Texas bars and drank till 6 kids with nothing change my journey to an early death.
Not too many men pray for forgiveness. Woman don’t seek to be saints.
We do what we must till one day we die and our bones rot.
I do pray for others. I do good things now. I don’t
drink anymore today. Now my beautiful children will pray for me.
I still believe all sins won’t be forgotten.
It is better to lived a good life.