Forgiveness..


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Forgiveness

The man at the booth with the bible. Asked me do I need
help? His eyes penetrated me like he could see me drowning in sin.

     I told him somethings in life can’t be forgiven. He smiled and told me ” God will
forgive you for all sins.”

     I told him my father drank everyday of his life. He
abused woman and left children without food. He believed by going to church on
New Years eve and prayed to be forgiven. He would be forgiven?

     The man with the bible put the book down. Told me. “I
don’t know if there is a free pass for all sin, son. I don’t know. You are
young. What could you have done so bad?”

     I smiled and told him.” I broken most of the 7 deadly sin,
sir. I drank. Didn’t lie too much. Laid with woman with wedding band. Did deeds
I’m trying to repair?”

      The man did a silent prayer and told me. “Son, we all fall down and
must get up. This world is full of sin. Sad part is it seem all the bad thing
seem more exciting and better. You need to learn from your mistakes and become
better. Beg for forgiveness.”

     I shook the man hand and thanked him. I told him.  “The Lord
won’t forgive you if you stay on the same road. I do pray for my father. Sinner
and lovers of the road who  twisted the truth. We won’t get near heaven. No free
passes.”

      I don’t know how I fell so deep on the road to purgatory.  Sad part
I didn’t learn. Roamed the Texas bars and drank till 6 kids with nothing change my journey to an early death.

Not too many men pray for forgiveness. Woman don’t want to be saints.

We do what we must till one day we die and our bones rot.

      I do pray for others and I do good things now. I don’t
drink anymore today.  Now my beautiful children will pray for me.

       I still believe all sins won’t be forgotten.

         It is better to lived a good life.

                         Coyote

                           Nov. 2008